I had my MRIs done yesterday at an offshoot of the hospital so no waiting. When I went last week I was told there was a two hour delay due to cases in the ER. Since we had Lara with us we had to reschedule as it was 6:30 PM and she had yet to have her dinner. We brought snacks to keep her until say seven but the two hour delay was just too much. So I had it yesterday and it was long as I had two different areas done as well as contrast. After my IV site bleed out all over my sleeve when they removed the IV. I never had that happen before. I am grateful I was wearing a dark grey sweatshirt and not a white sweater. Anyway I still am feeling tired and depressed and have that constant ache that turns into pain the first thing in the morning. I also just feel week all the time. I am wrapping myself in a prayer shall to get better. I do feel better in it.
Lara is just going down hill by the minute. We are going to start her on drugs which I did not want to do but she is definitely showing not only ADD symptoms but Autism as well. She has repetitive speech and inappropriate facial gestures. She is also doing this clapping thing that I have only seen with the autistics client of the Developmentally Disabled adult organization that I used to work with. She also is doing a repetitive speech patter i.e.: “Mommy, Daddy” again something I have only seen with autistic cliental. So I am positive she is on the spectrum. I just don’t know her exact position and from what the neurologist said we may never know as she thinks she is on the high end so to determine Asperger’s or OCD is a tough call although she did not see the clapping or repetitive speech while we were there and I forgot to mention it. We have a follow up in two weeks and I will tell her then.
Anthony is now imitating Lara, as he wants the attention. He is also saying he does not want to go to school next year and wants to stay home with me. I hope he is better with school than Lara. I just don’t know if I can handle two dramatic separation scenes every day Monday-Friday. So I am dreading school as well. It is also very expensive as it is 3,000 a year for half days. So it is ten months of $300. I just do not know where we are going to get the money. The only way I can think of is for me to get a job at night when Greg is home. I just don’t know where to start looking.
Greg is his usual self and getting on my nerves. Yesterday he worked at home so limited computer for me as he thinks my keyboard is too loud. He uses a lap top for his work and works in the same room as my computer as his phone is there and he needs it to work. Later on he took over my computer to buy my Valentine’s Day gift. I am 99.9% sure it is lingerie from Victoria’s Secret. Not looking forward to getting that as I hate lingerie and I hate Victoria’s Secret. I think they set up there mannequins like sluts around here. I mean one was bent over in such a way it was verging on porn with another standing right behind her! Anyway needless to say I hate that company so I am going to have to really use my acting skills on Saturday! Right now I am also thinking that giving me lingerie is like giving skiing equipment to a nomad in the Sahara!
Still not comfortable with no more babies. I get sad when I think about it.
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