UGH!!!!!!!.......

Wednesday was my prep day for the colonoscopy. They decided that my taking the Alieve was no problem as long as I didn’t take anymore. I didn’t eat anything past 9 AM but that was not an issue as my appetite is not very good and for once I was not nagged when I didn’t eat. There is always a plus to everything and that was it for me. Anyway I had to drink this liquid that I mixed with 6 oz of water. I knew it would be awful so I chugged it. I then had two full glasses of water. To put it as delicately as possible the bathroom was my room for the remainder of the evening. The next day (Thursday) I had to get up at 3:30 and down another one. It was painful as I hadn’t taken my med but I thought if I took my pill first the liquid Plummer would flush it through me so I waited and hour for it to leave my stomach and took it at 4:35. I was supposed to stop all liquids at 4:30 but to heck with it. Anyway they knocked me out for the procedure. They had asked me when my last period was and I couldn’t remember! They wouldn’t do the procedure until I peed in a cup and they did a pregnancy rest on me! I said I was tested negative in the hospital the week before but that was no good. Then I remembered I am on like CD 3. Ugh my brain is gone. The nurse was mad at me for that. Anyway so I was knocked out cold for the procedure and woke up in the recovery room. I felt awful. Greg took me home. He wanted me to eat but I was so sleepy I couldn’t so I slept most of the day. The pain was awful last night and the pain pills aren’t working so well anymore. I think I need something else now. My hematologist appointment is today at three. My mom and dad will watch the children while Greg takes me there. The doctor that did the colonoscopy told me before I left tat they didn’t find anything. I am confused as years ago I was told I had colitis which has caused me a lot of pain and now he found nothing. Anyway so he says that my low iron is from my menstruating! Ugh again with the menstruating! I said that it didn’t account for my degenerated lymph nodes or pain and he had nothing to say to me after that.

I just want to get well. I just worry I won’t and will leave my children way too young with only their father.

Prep Day...

The colonoscopy may or may not happen depending on if I can take the pain meds. I just don’t know how I can go through very long without them. My hematologist is Friday and I am not really sure what he will do. Maybe draw more blood? Honestly at this point I feel like I am seeing medieval doctors with all this blood drawing going on. Every time I see someone new they take my blood.

Lara is having a great time in summer recreation program. Anthony is good too and his rash is clearing up. Greg is being a good boy today and went to work with little ado. I am on a clear liquid diet for the rest of today and tomorrow morning.

Slightly better now...

Got drugs from the doctor so at least the physical pain is gone.

Going down...

The Advil just isn't working anymore so I am going to the doctor to get some decent drugs.

On a really sad note my friend of twenty years passed away. She was in her 80's but I wasn't ready for this.

So now I am in physical and mental pain.

Not doing well...

They found high ESR levels in my blood which mean I have an immune issue. Lymes and West Nile have been ruled out. I also have enlarged lymph nodes in my chest. They did an upper lever CAT to find the later. I have possible pneumonia (a tinny bit) that showed up in an x-ray but not the CAT. No reason for the pain but now I am just taking Advil to just get rid of it. For now it works, but I woke up last night when I needed a new dose.

ER...

When I take pain medication when it comes back it comes back worse than before. Last night was the worse ever as I had taken an Advil in the day. I took another one last night which is starting to wear off. I am off to the ER.

I just feel so bad....

I can't remember when I wasn't sick. My memory is really bad. The low iron is just making me want to sleep all the time. I can't even think about going out let alone sing or try to have a baby. My body would either reject it or I would end up in the hospital. I have never felt this bad in my life. The only good news is that my recent bout with a low grade fever is over. Other than that it is all bad here.